Monday, March 31, 2008
April Fool's, a day early!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
The Tumor
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Happy Birthday, Nina!
Today is Nina's birthday!
So we'll start today's with a tired Everett, sacked out after our morning walk.
And end with my sister and her youngest daughter, Avery. The girls had a piano recital this evening, so we attended the performance, then off to dinner and birthday cake. I hope you had a great day, Nin!
Friday, March 28, 2008
Pondering the Next Course of Action
We had an interesting night, though mostly because of Ansel. I think he ate too much dirt yesterday, because he was very restless. I had to tuck him in several times--he had crazy, action packed dreams with jerking legs and muffled barks. The last time I had to wake him up! Everett was not amused.
I am unclear what to do about Everett. She's slow today, but that might be because she's tired from yesterday. The stench from her mouth is not as bad as its been, but still noticeable. I don't think she's uncomfortable, as she inhaled her crunchy food this morning.
So is it a convenience thing for me, to decide when to put her down? Do I shell out another roughly $6000, to go through treatment again? Do I wait until she appears to be in too much pain--only demonstrated by when she refuses food?
The doctors can only advise me; they cannot tell me when to euthanize the little girl. It will be my decision, my action to take her in and put her down. I am hoping she dies in her sleep, after an action packed day of stick, walks, and general carousing with Ansel.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Cancer Girl
That is one of my 'dog gloves,' an interesting shade of green which has not improved with wear, but easy to slip on and off as clipping/unclipping leashes to collars, unwrapping poop bags, or warming up cold paws might necessitate. They are also very warm--an excellent attribute when the temperature is below zero.
Everett's tumor is visible again. I thought this might be the case, as I mentioned yesterday. Damn this cancer! Everett has done everything asked of her. She made it through the treatments, in the coldest time of year. She healed nicely, recovered weekly, and never lost her drive to play, play, play, as her energy level would allow. She ate all the nasty drool she could, and put up with (moderate resistance) my attempts to wipe away the drool she could not. And yet this growth has shown the same kind of resilience and fortitude as its host, the little girl.
Check up #1, Thursday
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Wednesday #1, No Radiation
Ansel and Everett, observing the day.
It's not very warm, and it IS very windy. Don't they look like they don't want to leave the porch? I had to shoo them into the yard.
Everett's spirits are great. She wants to play, chase Ansel, chew on her toys. She continues to eat crunchy food, and our walks are getting longer almost every day. Sometimes, in the mornings, she slides around on the hard wood floors, but I think that might have more to do with the floor, than her health. Ansel slides too!
Unfortunately, she seems to be doing a lot of air licking again. When she is checked tomorrow, I suspect we'll see some bad news. But for now, we'll enjoy this gray day, and just take what comes, tomorrow.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Just a Normal Tuesday
We had another good day today. It was warm, so we ventured out for several different walks this evening. We had a quick outing the garage door when I returned home, then ate, then played in the yard a bit, then back out the garage door for another, longer walk. Then inside for some snoozing, a few quick jaunts out in the yard, then another short walk before bed time. I have to say, not only am I grateful for her apparent good health, but I am ALSO grateful I don’t have to shove her in the car in the morning at 5:30am to get her to the hospital!! Sleep well, everyone! Everett and I will, Ansel willing. :-)
Monday, March 24, 2008
Continued Recovery!
Are we going out yet? Are we going out now? You are putting on your boots because we're going out now? NOW? Are you sure? I must run back and forth between you and the garage door, NOT the back door but the GARAGE door, because the GARAGE door means we are going out to the street. Can you put your boots on faster? If I stick my head in your way, and push you with my muzzle, and bark at Ansel (who is whining in the background), and be a general pain in the ass will you move faster? Are we going out now? NOW? Are you sure? Do you have my leash? Can I help you retrieve it from the closet? If I run up and down the garage steps will you move faster? I'll sit if you PROMISE we are going out now--you mean I'm supposed to stay sitting? Here--I'm supposed to sit here? Wait, are you sure it isn't THERE? Oh, I'm supposed to SIT here, sit HERE? Are we going now? Now? Are we going?
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Easter Sunday
So these poodle action photos are actually from Saturday afternoon, where we played in the snow over and over again!
I think I am getting better at catching the action shots! Or maybe just learning how the pups are going to move, as they chase and catch each other.
And this is my niece, Sydney. I'd forgotten the bacon at my house, for our Easter brunch at my sister's. So Syd and I walked to my house, picked up the bacon, and we are now on our return trip to the brunch. She'd been walking with her head down and didn't see a low hanging, snow covered branch in her path. It dumped snow down her back and into her sweater. This was her pose, after we finished brushing off the snow--game for any kind of action. Happy Easter, everyone.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Still snowing
Snapped a few hours later, here is the same birdhouse I posted on Tuesday--the residents must have flown south again. :-)
Friday, March 21, 2008
Good Friday!!
Everett had a great day. Granted, she slept most of it, but when she was awake we played and played, went out for walks, and celebrated in general, her continued recovery. Our last walk Friday evening was VERY slow, so I am hoping I didn't overextend her in all our snow-related antics. Maybe she'll sleep soundly tonight!
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Recovery
I spent the rest of the night on the floor with her. Initially I held on to her foot, so her leg wouldn't jerk to extension, and after a bit the frequency of the spasms seemed to lessen. I stretched out on her bed with my back to my bedframe, wrapped myself in what I could reach of her down comforter, and she put her head down while keeping a careful eye on me. I'm not sure if holding her foot finally allowed her to gain control of her leg, but the spasms subsided and she went to sleep.
She's been very quiet today, and she ate both breakfast and dinner, so after a short walk outside, I am looking forward to sleeping in my own bed tonight.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Radiation Wednesday #6
On to more enjoyable topics...Everett has really great news! There are no tumor measurements in her release paperwork today, because there was no discernible tumor to measure!! The spot on her jaw where the tumor was growing is still obvious, but the hope is that today's radiation and the cumulative effects over the last 6 weeks has done its job and the tumor is gone. The spot has healing to do; she is drooling blood as per usual after treatment. But when the healing is complete, the location of the tumor should not look any different than the rest of her jawline. Today was also her last melanoma vaccination shot.
I learned today that the hospital has also been radiating the lymph nodes in Everett's neck, every week! I had no idea! This information may well explain her retching and repeated swallowing with head bob, and perhaps even the occasional puking, as her throat area may well be tender or sore from the treatment.
She is still moving in very stiff, slow fashion, but I am so hopeful she has a speedy recovery to her elegant motion, now that we know she's made it through treatment. You did it, Everett!! The next few weeks will be crucial in her recovery, but we are really at the best possible juncture--even better than I dared to hope. She'll go in for regular check ups and if the tumor becomes visible again we'll need to take immediate action.
I plan to do some homework tonight, to tally the tumor measurements over time as well as the expense of all of her treatment, including surgery, in 2008. Look for those numbers tomorrow.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Snow Covered Home
It was so beautiful this morning when we went out for our walk! I grabbed the camera and tried as many shots with different lighting. I thought this one was hilarious--even the birds have a "driveway" to shovel. And oddly enough, this is long before sunrise, and no flash for this photo--yet it appears to be light outside....
Monday, March 17, 2008
A Girl and Her Dog
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Surviving the Ides of March
Saturday, March 15, 2008
A Day of Rest
When I went out to greet her, she was neither nervous nor worried, so I think she chose to lie here. I also think she's grown weary of me sticking a camera in her face. She won't look at it anymore--maybe the flash bothers her? Anyway, I only snapped a few photos and then asked her to come into the house.
We've done very little, today. It was sunny and warmer this morning, so we went for a walk, then while Everett slept, Ansel and I ran some errands. He likes going in the car and he's a much better passenger than Eve, so now that it's warmer I try to take him with me as often as possible.
Wouldn't you know it--Everett won't eat her food soaked in water and broth anymore. She much prefers the SAME food, but dry! I've been soaking her food ever since treatment started, to make sure the kibble isnt painful for her to crunch, and also to make sure she eats her arthritis meds which I dissolve in the water (and now her antibiotics, too). So I drained out all the broth and she drank that, then I mixed in a little dry kibble with some of the soaked stuff, and she ate it all. I'm going to have to give her evening and midnight snacks today, to make sure she really DOES consume any meds left in the mushy kibble.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Did She Have a Stroke?
This picture is from this evening (Friday), where we played a great round of stick, just about an hour ago. There is a whole series of these photos, but this one shows the most action from her, the little girl.
I think Everett had a stroke last night (Thursday night). We were out for our "run" and all of a sudden her movement slowed to an old dog's walk. For the first time since LAST winter, she looked like an old dog in her movements. Really old.
We came home and she fell into the bed in the kitchen, where she remained for a long time. She was not able to rise on her own. After I helped her to her feet, she slipped all over the kitchen floor--not able to keep her feet under her. Moving toward the bedroom, she wrapped herself around the leg of the dining room table, and did not know how to extract herself from it. I helped her to her bed, where she literally fell onto her side and stayed there.
She looked at me, but her eyes were twitching side to side at a rapid pace, as though she were gazing at me and someone next to me over and over again. Terrified, I didn't know what to do.
I spent the night on the floor with Everett. It was a terrible night. And yet, about 3:30am, she woke me to go outside, and she was already standing. She moved with her normal grace to the door. Though she hesitated at the step on the patio, she made it both down and then up the step and back to bed. By morning, it was as though the night's shakiness had never happened.
And so tonight's fun is extra special, because just 24 hrs ago, she was barely able to stand. She sleeps soundly now. I hope to as well.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Thursday's Recovery
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Radiation Wednesday #5
She hasn't eaten her dinner here at home, but she ate half a can of food while at the hospital, so at least I know she's had something.
So back to the good news...Here are the last 2 measurements:
March 5, 2008 2cmx1.5x.5
March 12, 2008 1.5cmx1x.2
So it has reduced in size for two weeks in a row! And the U gave me a tip on how to deal with the necrotic tissue smell...feed her tea. Any kind...I'll stick with decaffeinated, but the point is there is an element to the chemical composition of tea, that will help her deal with the drool, and with the smell.
So I've brewed up a batch for her, let it cool, and tried to entice her to drink some, but no go. I'll try again in the morning.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Emergency Vet trip #2
When she started digging at the kitchen floor, I knew something was really wrong, and off we went to the emergency room. Certain Eve had something stuck in her throat, I tried to describe her odd behavior, but the lick, lick, swallow spoke for itself. There was no doctor there yet, so they took Everett from me for observation 'til the vet arrived, and I went home.
Doctor called a few hours later after seeing Eve--I gave the rundown again, answered some questions, and then we hung up so the Doctor could call the University and talk to Eve's Oncologist. They took radiograms (X-rays) of her throat and chest, to make sure all her passageways were clear (they were). They tried feeding her hard food--the doctor said Eve dropped the first cookie, but later ate it. They gave her soft food, and water, and she consumed both right away.
So...once again, there is no definitive diagnosis for the odd behavior. Doctor did say the area around her tumor seems to be inflamed and possibly infected, so she prescribed some antibiotics and sent her home. On a side note, one of the technicians stayed with me while I waited for Everette to come out...in part of our small talk she let me know she and another tech experimented with Eve by giving her cookies--Eve ate the first one whole! Not a single chew...the tech said they first thought she'd dropped it because she was immediately looking for another one. Not knowing if this was before or after the vet tried giving Eve a cookie, I didn't really know what to do but laugh at the antics of the little girl.
I am so greatful to this wonderful staff, who has taken so much time with me. When I picked Everett up, the same vet spent a good 20 minutes telling me all they'd done with Eve, went over her radiogram with me, made sure I knew all that has been prescribed for Eve is in conjunction with the doctors at the U. It is true, we do not know what caused her bobbing, or floor digging.
Lastly, yet again the vet was just amazed at Everett's age. Since I've had her since October, 1994, her age may be off by a month or so, but not more...pride just oozes out of me every time a dog-smart person is so surprised at Everett's age. She is sleeping now, and I am hopeful she will sleep through the night with no head bobbing, or anything else. No idea what was causing her to be so stressed, and while it is frustrating not to know what's wrong, it is so gratifying to see her resting comfortably. You go, Girl!
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Jenny's Day, Sunday, March 9
Today is Jenny's Day, so we'll pick up Everett's story tomorrow. Affectionately known as Jenner, this dear friend has been part of my life since we were 6 years old. We grew up across the street from each other, and a few months ago went on a roadtrip through Wisconsin to an area outside of Chicago. On the return trip, we passed several wind farms, and had a great time talking about them. So here's a photo, taken by Wagner Christian (06/2006), posted just for Jenner. Happy Trails! Much love,
Paige
Friday, March 7, 2008
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Everett's Birthday
Everett is from Newington, CT, where she was found by the police in a sorry state. Eric and I lived in CT at the time, and when we first saw her, she'd been in Connecticut K-9 for 7 days. She looked as though she'd just arrived. Starving, she was so thin her backbone, hip bones, and shoulder blades jutted out from under her skin, making her difficult to touch. She literally had no muscles. Eric called her a skeleton with dandruff and it was really true. Her hind legs were touching at what you and I might call her elbows (hock is the dog anatomy term), and sadly, the vet who checked her for us could not determine if this was a birth defect, or a result of starvation. But we were on the hunt for another dog, a special dog. Our resident pet, Kechel (age 6), was very particular whom he would let near me. Kechel was a rescue himself from a Dedham, MA shelter, when he was about 1.5 years old. A Vizsla/Doberman cross, Kechel had ALSO had a rough beginning and once he filled out, he became not only the world's most beautiful animal, but also my 24/7 guard dog. It was important that whatever dog we brought home was acceptable to Kechel. The introduction went well--with me nowhere near the pen, Eric was able to introduce this starving puppy to Kechel. I approached the pen...I entered the pen...I stroked and played with this sad excuse of a puppy and Kechel did not make any objections. Everett was so small compared to him, but he let her climb on him, chase him, allowed her near me. We brought her home. Eric named her Everett, after his paternal grandfather. Everett's frame was essentially full grown, but in her sad state she fit between Kechel's front and back legs when he stretched out on his side. We have no pictures of this--only the ones in our heads. In fact, we have no pictures of her first few days with us. In hindsight I wish we did, so we could compare, with accuracy, her progress.
So fast forward a bit--she filled out, thankfully with a sound structure, and poor Kechel probably never had another day in her presence, of complete peace. Everett was relentless almost from Day One, and in such a dilapidated state! In the course of her obedience training and daily conversation, Kechel became the Big Dog, and Everett the Little Girl. Eric and I learned if we wanted her to leave us alone, the best way to distract her was to give a toy to KECHEL. Kechel, bless his heart, tolerated most of her antics, to a point. As she grew, her challenges to him became more and more pronounced and within a few years, their disputes were sending Kechel to the hospital. She tore his ear. She put a hole in his flew (flaps that cover their teeth). I think the most serious injury was a tooth straight into his chest--we didn't know how serious it was until the next day when we woke up to a grapefruit sized sack of fluid on his ribs. He went in for emergency surgery, and came home with a catheter to allow drainage. I know there were more injuries--Eric might remember different ones than I do--but it was not ALL conflict. They played. They shared food. I have photos of them stretched out together in the sun. They stayed together in the bedroom while we were at work. We really did have a good time with both dogs. Everett became a GREAT running partner for me. I trained for my first marathon with her (she did not partake in the race--dogs aren't allowed). She demanded lots of exercise--much more than Kechel had needed as a young dog. I bought a harness for her and she learned how to pull me on rollerblades. I went through three pairs of blades over the next 6 years or so, which is impressive considering New England winters are not conducive to year round blading!
Eric and I went our separate ways when Everett was about 3.5, and Kechel was getting close to 10. I take full blame for the end of our relationship. We decided to switch dogs--I gave Kechel to Eric and I took Everett. Eric moved on, and a few years later married a good friend from high school. Their wedding was Friday--on Sunday he called to say Kechel was in need of help. Eric had returned home to MN by then--I was in Georgia. Kechel had been on meds for his heart for years--Eric had taken excellent care of him. At age 15 Kechel's heart was failing; he could not lie down because of the pressure his chest put on his heart. He had not slept in 3 days, and Eric didn't know what to do. He was leaving for Great Britain that day for a week of work, and Darci was joining him for their honeymoon overseas. Timing is everything, right? Together, we decided it was time to put Kechel to sleep, and Eric started married life without that last tie to me. I regret to this day that I was not there to help Eric in person with the important event of ending Kechel's life.
I have lived in four states since Everett and I left CT. I acquired Ansel in 1998, when my sister found him on her doorstep in Brooklyn, NY (I was still living in CT at the time, but Eric and Kechel had already moved to Chicago, so Kechel and Ansel never met). When I moved to the Boston area, I was running with both dogs--even blading with both, though Ansel never wore a harness (Everett did most of the pulling--he was just along for the ride). I lived in Brookline, and I look back on this now with AMAZEMENT, but we'd get up before daybreak on Saturdays and they'd pull me down Commonwealth Avenue. It was early enough that there was no serious traffic until our return trip time, and by then Eve was tired enough to be trotting instead of the full tilt running on the way out. Comm Ave is lined with oak trees...oak trees mean acorns in the fall...acorns mean squirrels...squirrels were something to chase and that meant I REALLY had to pay attention. Curbs, parked cars, traffic lights, gravel, broken pavement, and so on are all pitfalls to rollerblades and none of them meant ANYTHING to Everett as she kicked up her running to chase the ever-present squirrels. I'll say with a straight face that it must've been just hilarious watching our progress down the street as she lunged for squirrel after squirrel, and acted as my brake at the same time if she made it to the object allowing the squirrel's escape--usually a tree. She'd jump up on the tree while I zoomed past her, and dig in when my weight reached the end of the leash. I don't remember any incidents where Ansel went after a different squirrel than Eve...what would I have done if the dogs went in different directions and there I am on wheels?? Thankfully, he's never been a very good tracker--Eve follows the same squirrel as far as she can see it, including along phone lines but Ansel has never been that observant.
Fast forward again, and Eve is pulling me for miles on the Silver Comet trail, outside Atlanta, GA. I used to drive for more than 30 minutes every weekend, to get to this trail. I feel terrible saying this, but we'd go so far that we wore off some of the pads on Ansel's paws. Poor Ansel! Of course as soon as I realized what was happening I stopped taking him--at least for the longer durations. This exercise was so important that the location of my first home purchase was influenced by the trail--the home had to be within reasonable driving distance of the trail. By the time I bought my second home in GA Everett was old enough that the blading was not mandatory, but optional.
Fast forward again, and here we are in MN. Since Eve is from CT, and Ansel is from NY, the winter snow is not unknown to them, but perhaps the cold is a bit much for their bones. Ansel, as we know, has almost no hair, so he REALLY doesn't like temperatures below 10 degrees. Everett has a lot more insulation, but also has more years, so the magic 10 degrees is about her limit too. Up to this winter, I was still running with both dogs although the distances have come way down. These days our runs are so short I don't even put on running shoes--boots, clogs, and flip flops have all been "running" foot attire.
I have more stories, but I think this blog is long enough for today. It is obvious that we saved Everett's life by adopting her in October, 1994. We've been through a lot--lived in different places, done different things, known different opportunities and situations. Through all of this, I feel greatful to say, I think Everett has saved my life too. Happy birthday, Little Girl.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Radiation Wednesday #4
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Democrat Decision Tuesday (3/4)
And yet, amongst all these things, I am spending every evening "running" in the streets when I return home, wiggling around on the floors chasing ropes and rawhides, piling on the blankets at rest time, and doing all the little things I wish I'd done every day of Everett's 14 years. She is going to die in 2008, and no matter my own or the country's economic situation this year and coming years, 2008 will always be the year I lost the little girl.
Wouldn't it be great, if her incredible stamina brought her into 2009? Here's to hoping!