Thursday, April 17, 2008

Difficult Morning

Everett chased a squirrel this morning.
But I think she has had another episode of some kind, or another stroke. She is now dragging both back paws, and her hind quarters seem to move with a mind of their own. Her spirits are up--she does not seem stressed or in pain. Even though it is hard to watch her in motion, it was great to see her chase a squirrel!
When the time comes, I will miss my friend.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Difficult Day

This is what Everett looks like when she's chasing you.
I had to rush into the house to grab the camera, as I was unprepared for she who just won't quit.
No really good chase scenes, unfortunately, before she moved on to stick.
We played stick for only a few minutes, but they were precious, fun, exciting minutes.
Then something else caught her attention, and the game was over.
There are more pictures, after her pause shown here, that are very difficult to view. She started panting, and I had a clear opportunity to snap some shots of the tumor area. All those photos are shot without benefit of viewing--I have to keep her attention facing me so I could aim the camera at her side without her attention following my hand.
Some of the jaw pictures are very graphic. I went back and viewed the photos during stick, to see if any of those showed the tumor area. Some do. It is clear that the infection or tumor--whatever is so angry red, and swollen in her jaw--is not only back but now shows up on both sides of the tooth (lip side and tongue side). I am completely amazed that tooth has not yet fallen out--the entire root is still visible at the end of the tunnel of flesh (area I have previously referred to as the Parting of The Red Sea).

Even with additional drugs today, it is clear that her day is coming soon. Please let that day be full of stick and rope and all things good for the little girl. Please let her go on her own terms, in her own way.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Tax Day is...Taxing

While I sat at the table, puzzling over all I have to do, Everett was underfoot.
I took this photo upside down, which is the easiest way to capture her when she's this close. She happily munched away on the tennis ball bone, asking every now and then to go outside.

Wow was it windy today! She did not stay outside for long periods, which is probably a good thing as several branches came down in the yard--one of them right into their dog beds. On the bright side, that's good news! More stick for play. On the other hand, good news the beds were empty and no one was injured.

Everett has started dragging her back left paw. Perhaps she's been doing it a while and with the snow or frozen ground, I just didn't notice. But now you can hear the scrape of her nails on the pavement, or maybe it's the scrape of her knuckles? The hair on top of her paw does not appear to be damaged or shortened or otherwise altered, so I am hoping it's just the nails that are scraping as she trots/walks.

She has also been panting a bit, which isn't too surprising as it's much warmer outside (high of 66 today) and a black dog in the sun is...warm. I'll be honest--I have not looked in her mouth at all. I try when I see her panting, but I haven't seen the tumor area since that car trip last week.

The last two nights Everett has been very restless (relatively speaking). She's also started digging in her bed, not the destructive way Ansel does, but as though to rearrange. I tried puffing both of them for her, in case she's looking for more padding, or nesting, but when she climbed back into each of them, her digging continued. I wish she could tell me how I can help.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Where Is My Sunscreen?

Eyes closed against the bright sun, Everett is patiently waiting for me.
Even though there is still a small amount of the white stuff in this photo, today was a beautiful day.

When I arrived home this evening, I thought both dogs would be anxious to simply lounge outside in the warm air. Not so! Ansel was a serious pain tonight, so I took him out for a longer walk without the little girl...not minutes had passed upon our return when the whining started up yet again!

Everett chased a few rabbits today--it is such a pleasure to watch her run after the destructive (but cute) little pests. I would NEVER leave her outside overnight, but sometimes I wish she could stay outside all day and all night, to guard the garden against them. She charges into the yard after our walks, hoping to scare some into scampering. We always go straight from our walks to the south lawn, and THEN into the house, because the garage entrance to the house is too tight of a corner for two dogs looking for breakfast/dinner, yet needing a human to open the door. Instead, we spring ourselves through the garage door to the yard, like runners charging out of the starting blocks. They run their race, then head for the house door where I can let them inside in an orderly fashion. So even though Ansel had an extra walk, Everett got to chase the rabbits. Overall, a pretty good day for the little girl.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Her Sunday Best

Everett is on the move! Ansel is in front of her, and so is her stick.
Of all the action shots I took today, this is the only one that is clear, AND shows their faces.
This should be the last of our snow. It all melted in the south lawn by the end of the day, save the stubborn pieces on the north side of the trees, and the fence.
There has been a few slight modifications in Eve's behavior. The last few weeks, I've noticed she prefers to walk in the snow or grass at the front of people's yards, instead of in the street. She nibbles at her food, and now repeatedly leaves kibbles in her dish--hard or soft. And the direction she chews her sticks has changed. She does not use the left side of her jaw, but rather her front teeth, or the right side. She shreds things with her front teeth--bark, tennis ball bones, ropes--all of them she seems to chew differently. The only two items she still uses molars for are the Galileo, and nylabone.
On a more positive note, the dryer weather has really helped her mobility, as depicted the last few days. It is to be a dry week this week, so I am looking forward to lots of "action shot" photos, with grass as the background, instead of snow.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Still Got It!!

These warmer days, with the snow, seem to be Everett's favorite.
Her stick behavior IS modified--this stick is not quite as big as her usual weapons.
But then, there is always Ansel somewhere nearby...
And Ansel is usually up for some rough and tumble fun.

What is it, with the footprints!

I am not sure why I like taking pictures of her footprints. It was CHILLY this morning, before the sunrise, so we didn't spend much time outside.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Wet Day, Bad for Arthritis

Everett's footprints, shortly before 5:00 am this morning. It's still snowing. You can see three of her legs, and her shadow in the upper right corner of this photo.
It rained a good portion of today, changing back to snow shortly before dark. As you can see, not much accumulation. By this time, shortly before 9:00pm, the snow is tiny pellets, like the stuffing from beanbags when we were kids.

This weather is tough on Everett. She barely moved today, and I spent more than a few hours on the floor with her. Our short walks did not show much head bobbing, which is good, but she just really didn't want to move around very much--a rarity for the little girl!!


On a positive note, she did chew on the tennis ball bone once or twice, and guarded the new rope my sister Koren sent to us. Tomorrow is to be blustery (this IS April, right?), but Sunday starts the warming trend, and I hope Everett's motivation improves as the weather dries out.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Snow Snow Snow

Ansel, caught in a temporary pause, watching Everett (not pictured) run around him this morning. I only snapped two photos, before the camera battery died! We were out early, because we knew this was coming. It started raining around noon, and it gradually changed to snow. This winter storm warning is in effect until SATURDAY! Hopefully the strong winds will not stick around that long.
I did my best to tire both dogs before even the rain started, knowing that the coming storm would make them nervous. Sure enough--pacing, panting, whining...we have it all. I wish there was something I could do, to reassure them.

Other than the general unrest, Everett seems to be doing very well. She held up nicely during our morning outings--I wish I'd been able to take at least one picture of her in the yard while we played. Note to self--charge camera battery daily--it's Lithium! Tomorrow should be full of great photo opportunities, if there is enough snow to bring out the puppy in my two seniors. So, until then!

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Fighting Back

What a difference a day can make. I must have thrown this stick for Everett, for 30 minutes.
Next time I may time how long we are outside playing!
And her "take no prisoners" attitude is 100% in place. It's hard to tell, but she's pulling back on this tennis ball bone, with all her weight. Wouldn't that put a lot of pressure on her teeth?
I gave up...Everett never gives up. You go, girl!

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Slow, Gray Day

No pics today.

Everett was quiet. Not once did I see her pick up a toy. Yes, she was excited and danced around when she anticipated a walk, but all of our walks today petered out to merely a stroll, in record time. Her sleep seemed restful, but she did not eat all of her breakfast.

With a good night's rest, I anticipate her usual antics will return tomorrow.

Monday, April 7, 2008

An Evening with Everett

5:32pm--Everett is back inside after a quick walk, and waiting for dinner. She passes the time by tormenting Ansel, and chewing on a tennis ball bone.
6:12pm After eating, she is such a pest, we go out the back to run around. User Error, of course, with the action shot.
6:15pm What? Something caught her attention, she stops for a few seconds, and I get a still shot of her. I know it's only seconds, because she is already moving in the next frame (not shown, thankfully).
6:21pm Back inside, her jaunt in the yard was clearly not enough exercise for her. She has shoved herself under my legs at the table--that is my knee taking up most of this frame. She is pestering me for more attention.

6:53pm I have largely ignored her, as I try to get some work done. So she goes after Ansel, and takes his toy. She's now chewing on the remains of a tennis ball bone, which Ansel had just a minute ago. 6:59pm Not content with just taking the tennis ball remnant from him, Everett has moved on to stealing the Galileo from him. Ansel gives up and goes to his basket. 7:25pm Having conquered all the toys in Ansel's possession, Everett goes back to the tennis ball remnant, and takes it to this bed, where she can stretch out and watch me while I'm working.
And so goes an evening with Everett.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Radiation--the new dental floss

Very wet day, today.
I was able to get out with the poodles while it was spitting, but not really raining yet. It is really hard to see, but Everett has a stick between her feet. She was chewing it just a few seconds prior to this photo, when something in the neighbor's yard caught her attention. I brought Everett with me in the car today. She was nervous, as always, with the pending storm. Panting, she tried to climb into the front seat (she's never allowed in front), and I had a good view of the tumor area.

No doubt about it--radiation is good for getting rid of tartar. Her tooth at the surgery area is completely clean--what's left of it anyway. And as her infection is retreating, so is the material holding in said tooth. The entire root is completely exposed. Her tooth looks like it will go to the tooth fairy any minute, and I am just amazed that she continues to eat chewy food, AND chew on sticks!!

What used to look like a separation in the sewn tissue now looks like the parting of the Red Sea. To my untrained eye, there appears to be no evidence the two pieces used to be together. And it looks like another small growth is starting forward two teeth--if you look at the photo a few days ago you can see it. It's tiny, sesame seed size, and an ugly color. On a more positive note, besides that small seed, the fissure in the gum looks like healthy tissue; it is not an angry red nor puffy nor weepy.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

A Great Night

She slept so well! I only heard her moving around once, a little before 5am, but she went right back to sleep. I awoke after 7, and she was still sleeping! Here she is after breakfast, with the tennis ball bone, shredding it as per usual.
And while she's not finished destroying this one, she did gather up the others (one behind her, the other just at the bottom of the photo), to make sure Ansel does not have access to any of them. And now for a short snooze....

Because she slept so late, her meds were given 13 hrs apart, instead of the prescribed 12. Even so, she seems to be responding well! I am thrilled she had a good night of sleep--happy for myself, too. :-)

There is no visible swelling left in her face, and as you can see, she's resting on the tumor side of her muzzle. What a great way to start a Saturday!

Friday, April 4, 2008

Watching the Rain

She is lying at my feet, looking out on the rain storm that is passing through town. Our first one of the year, complete with thunder. She hates thunder. She knew the storm was coming before I did...she always does.

No stick today. But her face looks pretty normal, and the smell from her mouth is minimal. So all in all, a good day so far!

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Dealing With It

Taken April 1st, before we knew the cancer has already spread to her lungs. Taken April 3rd, after we knew the cancer has metastasized.
Does she look any different? Well, these are all action shots, so maybe that's not a fair question.

These two photos from today were taken 4 minutes apart--one in the snow and one in the grass. Please note the size of this stick, by its shadow in the photo. And the game was instigated by Everett, not me! In her current sore mouth condition, I would never ask her to pick up a stick, much less one this big.

My point is--she doesn't know anything is different from yesterday to today. Sure she was slow moving today, and yes, she was drooling blood--most likely from the poking around in her mouth yesterday. It may even be a good sign, if the drainage from the infection has improved. But give Everett the opportunity to have some fun, and she'll take it. Wouldn't it be great, if I could have the same attitude!

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Bad News

The cancer has spread to Eve's lungs. As of today, her life span prediction has been altered--odds are she'll be gone in less than two months.

Secondary bad news is the surgically altered area (where the tumor was removed Jan. 15th) has separated. Without bothering with the dog anatomy terms, her lip had been sewn to her gum area, to close the space where the tumor had grown just below the gum line. The new tumor growth, which is the first growth the oncologist at the U saw on Jan. 29, was growing out of the back side of that altered space, not up through it. The open space is so large that the doctor could see the roots of her teeth--it's possible the space is open all the way down to her jawbone, and it's infected. The smell emanating from her mouth is from the infection.

Knowing her time is so short now, we are treating the infection in her jaw with antibiotics. I know the doctor gave me at least 2 options on what next to do for that space, but for the life of me I cannot remember what they are. Not his fault--he spent far too much time with me as it was, doing his best to help me understand her options, as well as the possible outcome of each one. I just don't remember what they are....

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Mother Nature's Joke for April 1


Well, the snow has stopped falling. The roads are a mess, and just in our back yard, there are at least 8 inches on the ground. I'm sure much more snow fell than we were able to measure here, but a lot melted as it hit the ground, or at the bottom as it began to accumulate. Just 24 hours ago, there was no snow left in the yard at all.
Everett had a rough night. She went back and forth between the round dog bed and the rectangular one--one is harder than the other, but it seemed she just couldn't get comfortable.
I have called the hospital--we are going in to see her oncologist Wednesday morning.